I'm Not Avoiding Writing...

Really I'm not.  I am just having a really hard time remembering the sequence of events, and some of the details. 

Is this normal?  Is this a reaction to an emotionally and physically charged situation? 

I told the One what I wanted and asked him to do it to me.  I knew what was going to happen. 

When the time came, he took very good care of me.  He knew I was anxious & nervous.  He knew that what he was going to do was going to hurt me - a lot.  He took appropriate action.  I got a good beating with his belt which did two things: 1. calmed me down (I was in the foyer of sub-space)  and 2. released enough endorphins to help with the pain that was coming.

Did this also dull my senses enough that I wasn't cataloging what was going on?

I want to tell you all about my weekend. 

I just need to paste it together first... 

What I Need...

...is to be tied up, spanked, beat, kicked, spit on, cum on, tortured, burned, bruised, ignored, hurt and misused.