Pain

The girl will be the first to admit it - she's a pain slut.  She can usually turn pain into pleasure very  easily. 

There is, however, certain pain that even she can't transform: 

1. nerve pain
2. that awful, burning pain when your baby crowns
3. the pain that only someone you have allowed into your heart can inflict. 

The girl has endured a lot of the latter pain.  She may come off as indifferent when talking about it to people, but inside she hurts.

The rules and orders she receives from her ecD help for some reason.  They calm her down, settle her and distract her. 

Does anyone else out there have the same reaction to rules & punishments?